Wicca for beginners
Boston, 2008. It’s freezing cold outside. The Hudson river is frozen solid. I’m on my first business trip to the US (MIT is organising a job fair), as both we and our Dutch colleagues are there to hunt out talent for the company I’m working for. However, getting a hold of said talent seems way more difficult than expected at first: MIT alumni get, on average, a bigger variety of job offers, which means that your organisation isn’t necessarily at the top of their wishlist, however great you may be – and that is not mentioning the financial demands, seeing as to how many of them need to contract a large loan to pay off their study loan. The stay is incredibly nice, the mood amongst our group is optimal, we get introduced to local dishes such as Boston’s “clam chowder” and “unoaked Chardonnay”, and the different contacts we’re able to make with other companies are interesting and some of them even last today as professional friendships.
And all at the same time, I felt miserable; deeply miserable. Alone. Because even when I was allowed to go on this amazingly exciting business trip (I’d even had to put my foot down for it), everything else felt totally off. I didn’t feel at home in this admirable organisation: I felt left out of the decision making, I didn’t feel acknowledged for my contribution. It felt like a constant battle, whichever proposals or choices I made in my own field. At least, that’s what it felt like to me, everyone else is entitled to their opinions. We all make our emotional balance based on our own judgement.
My emotional balance was negative
Having been in this situation for several years, it really started to eat away my self-confidence. I didn’t know where I stood in life, I didn’t know who I was anymore, if I’d want to continue doing that job, if there even was a job that I was capable of … Despite these doubts, I stayed for more then 4 years, because it was close to home, I’d already switched jobs often, everyone told me I was so lucky to be in that job and that company … Secretly, I was green with envy after having seen my Dutch colleagues work with eachother. The way they were a team, their passion and joy, the fun they had, their drive. Oh, how I’d have loved to be a part of that.
While shopping on my last day in Boston, I went to look for some advice and wisdom in a book store. “Wicca for beginners”, that’s what the book I bought was called; not really a textbook example of a “reorient your career” book, but hey, why not. Last week, I found it by accident when rummaging through one of my bookcases. Apart from some social coping techniques, I could barely remember anything I’d learnt from the book and I’m pretty sure I didn’t become a Wiccan (you know, hadn’t really had the urge). I do, however, remember very clearly what I was looking for when buying that exact book on witchcraft: a way to turn the tide, to find my self-worth again and to no longer feel as vulnerable as I did then. More so, to empower myself to become convinced that there was more to life than this.
The 4th of September, I blew out eight birthday candles as being self-employed and I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. I can guarantee that my current job isn’t all sunshine and roses: as an entrepreneur, nothing’s for certain apart from the uncertainty, the thing you can feel and experience every single day. And all things considered, I’d still make the big leap to self-employment all over again. We spend most of our time awake on our work, and nobody should experience unhappiness caused by the activity that he/she does most frequently of all – for that, it’s just not important enough.
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